K AY COOKIE

brown cat

2012-02-02T01:54:00.003+08:00

those are my first few photos of baby brownie. she was the ugliest kitten ever! my sister found her abandoned by the side of Bagak's (my bro-in-law) house in Subang. she felt so sorry for the kitten, brought her home to her apartment and realised....she couldnt care for it because she and Bagak go to work from 8am until at least 8pm. so she send the kitten over to our house.

at that time, we just got Ash and we never had more than 1 cat at a time, my parents were abit reluctant to keep the kitten. we gave her away to Afiq, but took her back a week later because i started to miss her and i kept going over to Afiq's and was slowly falling in love with her.

we have a handsome British Shorthair cat and a lion, a beautiful Persian orange cat, but at the end of the day, the one i look forward to seeing when i go home from uni is my ugly cat Brownie. she is the most lovable cat ever. though she can be quite a rebel - loves to go out from the house and stay out most of the time. (she kinda hates OC, OC likes to disturb her when she is sleeping and both of them end up fight -__- but sibling fighting) still the sweetest cat ever.

when i do my work in my room, i would suddenly hear my room door open, i'll turn to look and see nobody there (freaks me out all the time!!) but i look down and i see Brownie. she'll jump on my bed and walk on my table and licks my hand or if i lean in to kiss her, she'll sometime lick my nose. little affection cats shows to say they love you, awwwwwhhh :P

its safe to say she is my favourite cat, that i even made a tshirt with her face on it.

she likes to go out from the house and only come back for dinner. yeah, she is like a typical teenager. my dad always compares my behavior to her. suka keluar jeeee. hmmph /whatevs

my baby cat hasnt been home for a good whole day now!! :( im so worried that something bad happened to her. she always comes home and when i go out to call for her, she will always come out from wherever she is hiding and meows back at me.

come home baby cat. :(

dinner and tennis

2012-01-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

went for dinner with SB yesterday at Chilis Bangsar. swear to god, going out with SB lately involves eating alot. it doesnt help that i have not been exercising AT ALL this past few weeks. i have nothing to counter the food i have been consuming. but oh well, i am not complaining with all the good food i am eating. I LOVE FOOD.

we had the bottomless nachos for starters, i had the crispy honey chiptole something... i thought it would be spicy, but it was kinda sweet and spicy together, i didnt really like it and i didnt want to say it to SB because he was buying dinner, i had 2 strips and took away the rest. SB has some small burgers (omg i really suck at describing food) they came with these fried onions strips. i kept picking on it until my food came.

we were so full but still wanted to have desserts, so i said lets wait a while and let the food settle. while waiting for the food to settle...i took out my iPad and played my all time favourite game, TEMPLE RUN!

i managed to beat my highscore while waitng.

weeehouuu!! my next target to beat is 5mil

SB watched me play while watching the Melbourne Open. never knew watching tennis would be so intense! we decided not to have desserts and went off to Jaya One to meet up with a friend. Jaya One was kinda boring, so we left to have Snowflake!

Snowflake always reminds me of my time working in Pavilion. it can get really boring working that going down to get treats like Snowflake, Shimino or bubble tea would make my day.

BUZZART

2012-01-29T01:03:00.003+08:00

been hanging out with Dahlia and Azza alot lately since we are the only ones left in KL while our other girlfriends are studying abroad and one girl happily jet setting around the world. it was like when we were 13.

we went to BUZZART this afternoon to check it out. our friend was hosting it and Momad opened up a booth there too selling cookies. his shop/booth is called Baked. not being bias because he is a friend, but his cookies taste like Famous Amos. Tres delicieux!

une

2012-01-28T18:29:00.003+08:00

i love my french classes but i am worried that i am able to only read french instead of speaking and constructing my own sentences. every night i try to read and memorise some of the phrases i learn the class before and use them in my daily life. but i still forget them. i need a french speaking friend who i see everyday to help me :(

so now, everytime i blog, i am going to construct a sentence in french without the help of my books and google translate. i will only google translate to check for grammar!

vous le diner avec moi??

amusez-vous bien!

2012-01-28T18:26:00.002+08:00

SB got a new iMac for his early birthday present and a congratulation present for his new job. i went over to officiate the photobooth :D

politics

2012-01-27T21:29:00.003+08:00

i think i turned off a guy by my lack of interest (or ignorance) about politics. he went on talking about how politics affects us and i just kept quiet. i didnt have anything to say because i didnt know what to say!

oh well... je comprend pas les garcon

superwowomg

2012-01-27T19:11:00.005+08:00

new shoes

SB was raving about Devi's Bangsar's Banana leaf. it is the *BEST* he ever tasted, better than Nirwana. i was skeptical, i mean, people who stays in the city are willing to go through the jam to get to Bangsar to have their Nirwana banana leaf fix. how can there be a better banana leaf?! so he brought me to Devi's to try it out.

my verdict: if you want more authentic indian banana leaf, go to Devis. they had kari ketam and they give you one piece of ketam! good stuff. in case you were wondering, what is the pink thing? its the sweet (i think it is) tapioca dessert.

i would still go to Nirwana for my fix.

the second picture is me trying to show my new hair colour....which is not as obvious as i hoped it would be.

productive

2012-01-27T00:32:00.004+08:00

woke up at 1130am this morning because Dahlia was pinging me to join her brunch at Publika. she was gonna be alone because her brunch date her sister was going to leave soon, from the moment i told her that i just woke up to the minute i asked her where she was when i got to Publika....i took 37 minutes to get up from bed, shower, put on make up, fix my hair, drive to Publika and get parking.

felt like a champion. ........i usually take more than an hour to get ready

since she already had her brunch, she accompanied me to have my breakfast at Plan B. i had the Royale Egg. It was egg benedict with smoked salmon on english muffin. my favourite western breakfast. i prefer marmalade's tho because they put boiled spinach in it. good stuff. i had their mocha which is also good. usually i wouldnt drink coffee unless i have to stay up late to study. i had dinner there with a friend, he ordered the mocha and forced me to try some. good stuff.

the only thing i dont like about Plan B (or any Big Group's restaurant) is their service!! they are so slow... friendly staff but slow service.

Dahlia with her cappacino and my Mocha on the left

ME! with a mouthful of my Royale Egg (and my new hair colour :P)

Azza joined us after, we were sitting down deciding what to do next, because we have so much free time in the world... Azza and I being on holiday and Dahlia is waiting to be employed. Dahlia and Azza decided to dye their hair, so we went back to my house to do it.

Azza bleached her hair and had like really rempit brassy orange hair. what a funny sight man. Dahlia helped Azza dye her hair back to ~~exotic red~~

hawibo!

2012-01-26T23:45:00.002+08:00

someone came over and dropped off my favourite gummies!!!!

Pfft, feelings?

2012-01-26T01:41:00.000+08:00

Come to think of it, I'm going to stop feeling altogether and just not think about it.

port

2012-01-26T01:12:00.004+08:00

1. i dont know why people like to talk about feelings. lets not talk about feelings and just chill. lets close our little box of feelings, put it aside for the time being and just freaking chill.

2. bucket list
this has been on my mind for some time but i didnt have the time to actually sit down and write/list down things i want to do before i turn 30. yes, 30. i firgured by the time i turn 30, my priorities would be different and i might not want to do the things i wanted to do during my 20s.

so far i have written 73 things and here are some of the things i listed down.... SOME of them.

1. Go to Paris (yesss, im in love with the city, well of the things i hear and see in pictures and culture and language)
2. sky diving
3. bungee jumping
4. cook laksa sarawak from scratch
5. cook laksa johor from scratch
6. donate blood (urrgghh...bhlood)
7. see Coldplay live
8. swim with dolphins
9. Climb Mount KK
10. Make my own quilt

so far, i have not ticked any off yet but i hope to tick off a few this year. :D

sloth

2012-01-24T19:27:00.002+08:00

munching on chips while watching youtube videos (still in your pajamas) and mom comes in my room and tells me that she just got back from the gym and tells you her exercise regime and then asked you what you did today?

...........nothing mom, woke up at 3pm, got coffee with a bunch of friends and came home and here i am now watching videos on prehistoric sea monsters.

rm200 book vouchers

2012-01-19T00:22:00.001+08:00

i had one of the best times picking out the books. hopefully this holiday, i will catch up on all my readings.

only you understand

2012-01-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

film

2012-01-06T23:40:00.003+08:00

i dont have to justify to anyone WHY i love my fisheye camera and the beautiful pictures it captures.

it's just is.

you may not agree with me, but...i love it. it gives accidental surprises.

wow

2012-01-03T00:47:00.009+08:00

WOW!! its already the 3rd of January 2012!! seriously time really flies!

yeah, its the 3rd of January already, lets move on! stop dwelling on the past and make the future brighter. i have a feeling this year will have its ups and downs for me. but more UPs i hope. i pray for more UPs.

2012

2012-01-03T00:24:00.002+08:00

cheers to 2012!!

i had a really good night. bumped into a few old friends. lol, this is really random. bumped into an old friend and her boyfriend is french. je parle francais un peu and the last time i went out clubbing, we met a french guy!! i should really brush up more on my french. which i am btw, hehe took up EXTRA french classes during my 2 months break. ill graduate with a french certificate. (insyallah) hopefully with me able to speak french abit, will make my dream much realistic.

but anyways, new years! i loved it because i was on my own, minding my own business, dragging Nash around and say hi to familiar faces. independent woman!

i wish for a good year. i want to be a better daughter, sister, friend and person. ill be 23 this year and i want to make the best of it :)

NY 2012

2012-01-02T20:18:00.001+08:00

2011-12-29T23:23:00.003+08:00

i am really sorry.

SB

2011-12-29T17:44:00.002+08:00

when will you understand? its not about being different or making things difficult.

i just want to be with the girls.

/PFFFFTTTT

2011-12-25T21:54:00.003+08:00

i want out.

2011-12-25T21:46:00.004+08:00

you know, things change, people change, situation change. changes happen all the time. its either we dont except it or embrace it. i am trying to embrace it in a positive way but sadly not everyone is on that route with me.

and there is this unnecessary drama happening, technically im not part of it, but its happening around it, therefore i am forced to listen about it, that its making me so ARGHHHHH!!!! i dont want to be part of it.

it honestly has nothing to do with me but i cant help but feel bitter and resentful about it because it is sort of effecting me in a way (in the long run).

i want out.

Girlfriends

2011-12-23T01:42:00.000+08:00

New Year

2011-12-22T23:44:00.004+08:00

someone twittered 9 more days until the New Year...

erkk...i read that 9 more days until my thesis paper is due!!! On the way home just now, i got a text. 1. i hardly get text messages now, even if i do get text messages, its usually from my mother asking me if i want to have dinner at home or Maxis saying i got free caller ring tones or MMS.

with modern technology (eg: blackberry and iphone), the only few people i communicate daily will bbm/whatsapp. so when my text message rang, i was curious, while driving (yes i know, dont text and drive) i opened my inbox.......

it was my supervisor/lecturer......

"deadline dah dekat"

OMG.

INSTANTLY i felt so pressured that i rushed home to do my findings.

i still have quite abit to do, but i think i can pull through this 9 days. 9 days of hardwork and focus!

boo

2011-12-20T21:34:00.001+08:00

the worst feeling is when someone makes you feel special then suddenly they leave you hanging and you have to act like you dont care.

Remember

2011-12-14T00:37:00.000+08:00

I have to keep reminding myself the root of the problem.

People want what they can't have. Once they have it, they won't appreciate it a much. They'll take care of it the first few times, sooner or later they'll just toss it aside and care less about it.

Its not going to be like that anymore.

.
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chilling 2.1

2011-12-12T21:01:00.001+08:00

i was told i was too uptight and needed to chill. whatever.

its okay, ill go look for it somewhere else.

chilling 2.0

2011-12-12T11:09:00.002+08:00

put myself on house arrest last weekend so i can finish up the last bit of my remaining assignments. OMG. i am never going to put myself on house arrest again. seriously, staying at home for a whole weekend can really eat you up.

i was fine on Saturday, i managed to finish half of what i planned to do and by Saturday night i was so sanggap. i wish there was an english word to describe "sanggap" i was starting to lose my mind. i wanted to sleep so badly but i couldnt. i was wide awake until 4am. i was tossing and turning. played my games on my ipod/ipad. took a shower at 230am. then a friend texted asking what was i doing? i said i was trying to sleep and he was out in Changkat. urghh felt like the world most boring-est person and then to make matters worse...later on, i got another text from him saying he was at another club. -__-

then Sunday came by.......... i was so tired of doing assignments. i procrastinated alot. the whole i was infront of my laptop just doing research on my topic, which was good. but i did not start on my article!!!!! i had all the materials and didnt start.

when i finally did start writing, i was slowly uninspired and was having a minor writer's block. so i left it at that and went to bed.

next weekend better make up for this weekend!

Chilling

2011-12-07T16:53:00.000+08:00

For the first time in my university years, its the end of the semester...I'm chilled! Like not stressed and just lalala-ing my days away.

Sure I still have a few assignments to submit but they are just essays and reports. Speaking of reports, for the 1st time... I'm not the one compiling work from everyone and not checking it. Someone else is doing it, though I will have my COD moment when I get the report and correct everybody's grammar and sentences.

All I have to be worried about is my Academic Writing and freaking pass my last semester of degree!!!

Yay to me!
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The irony

2011-12-01T03:03:00.000+08:00

"it's complicated"

Boy

2011-11-29T00:25:00.004+08:00

He talks big and promise you the world

......but never follow through.

Its time to man up

healthy

2011-11-28T13:04:00.003+08:00

You asked what can you do? what can you do? what can you do to make it right. you will do anything. i told you what you could do. i was willing to work it out with you to make it happen.

then suddenly you disappeared.

which goes back to WHY i asked for it in the first place.

you taught me that things don't come easily, so if you want something so badly, work hard to get it. what i see is you pulling back...

.

2011-11-21T03:16:00.004+08:00

whatever it is... i still have to go through it.

zee avi

2011-11-19T13:06:00.002+08:00

went for her homecoming show at KL LIVE the other day, it was nice. we got really good seats and had a REALLY good view of her.

one of my favorite songs is Concrete Wall, she sang the lyrics so beautifully, i had to hold back my tears. (kena maintain sikit)

i think its better live because it has more feel to the lyrics and song. listen la

2011-11-19T12:05:00.002+08:00

i finally told my parents what happen, because it was already unavoidable. i was seriously freaking out when i told my mom,

i expected hell from her, but she gave me love. :'(

i broke down instantly.

Fresh air

2011-11-18T11:34:00.000+08:00

While you get your air, ill go smell some perfumes.

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/sigh

2011-11-17T11:10:00.002+08:00

i always learn things the hard way.

raincoat

2011-11-11T22:40:00.002+08:00

class trip to Lumut in 2 weeks, not looking forward to it.

instead of complaining... i am going to find a way that will make the trip a little more entertaining.

i really hope the faculty approves the budget because i dont want to pay to for a trip that im forced to go too. i know i said no complaining, but !!!! money i can save for my UK trip 2012 (thats a different story for later on)

2011-11-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

1. Bought Coldplay's Mylo Xyloto album last week. Fav songs off the album 1. Hurts like Heaven 2. Paradise 3. Princess of China
Apparently they are coming to Malaysia in 2012!!!!! YAY!!!!!!

2. A cluttered room is a cluttered mind. That's exactly my situation right now. Been so busy that my room is so messy! I thought of dedicating my weekend to spring cleaning but I couldn't stand it. I had to do some de-cluttering.

3. Sorted out my assignments/midterms/due dates and etc. Work load is slowly coming up. I need to really manage my time properly. I forgot I had a midterm yesterday and was reminded that morning... *CRY*

4. I am having my menses and I'm emotional. I get emotional a friend didn't reply my tweet but replied another persons. I'm emotional because my hair is screwing up. Stupid things to get emotional about!!

5. My wrist seriously feels naked.

6. Its 1am. I can hear screamings, howling and thumping from my neighbour's house. Ive watched too many scary movies and experiences in NS and Melaka is telling me to baca ayat kursi and sleep.

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instead

2011-10-30T20:56:00.002+08:00

got this instead! this is my first Pimpins earning :D

7

2011-10-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

1. Again, its 'MY' instead of 'OURS'
2. Went to Big Bad Wolf Book Sale, bought 30 books for rm230!!!! Crazy innit! So far books read = 1
3. Allowance finishes like water... Dapat duit lepas tu habis :(((
4. Got an awesome topic for my feature writing which I plan on submitting it to the papers, but I got to do it asap before the issue basi
5. Lazy, unmotivated, no vision, and lazy, nuff said.
6. Need to make new friends.
7. Less than 6 months more!!!! Can't wait!

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bf

2011-10-19T00:20:00.002+08:00

been wearing my boyfriend blazer to classes lately and i love it. it gives me a cleaner look instead of my usual jeans and shirt selekeh look. LOVE IT.

now im looking for a white or cream blazer.

i should charge my camera and make use of it....

K miles away

2011-10-15T00:54:00.000+08:00

Just skyped with my best girl, felt so good and happy talking to her!

Love you lots and Miss you very much
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bullshit

2011-10-14T22:24:00.001+08:00

"i was upset"

"i never got around doing it"

"ill do it tmrw"

little things that make me happy

2011-10-14T00:37:00.004+08:00

if only

2011-10-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

i wish i can quit uni and go to beauty school. people think studying journalism is glamorous. its only glamorous if you write for fashion, beauty, and life.

PPFFFTT TO ACADEMIC WRITING

overwhelming

2011-10-09T22:15:00.004+08:00

i know her intentions are right but sometimes its overwhelming.

she has been hinting slightly to me that i should dress up more, wear more make up, present myself properly and etc. she does it quietly... stealthy... BUT ever since she got back from Perth, she is on me full on!

argh!! i never felt like i needed to avoid my mom like this until today

dont judge me.

2011-10-07T22:50:00.004+08:00

if i were to describe how sad i am... i think it would feel like someone died. the loss of someone. its not sad, pity. its just sad. i can really feel it in my heart. its like a hot melting pot of sadness. it feels hot and heavy. i feel sad that i cant do anything. sad to hear him like that. sad that its like this.

i am impatient. i don't want to go through this but i know i try to speed things up i might just lose myself and whatever that's left. so i have no choice to go through this. i hate it. i hate it so much.

i hate it so much that it makes me restless and uneasy until i get anxiety attacks. i had to go out from class just so i can catch my breathe. its really distracting especially now my assignments are pilling up. i really cant lose focus now. i need to ace this semester.

now i don't know if i should wait... or just go on. i cant remember how it was before. life before...felt ancient, non existent... i don't know if this is a bump on the road or when the signs says to slowly brake until stop.

i also have a friend to make up too. i ditched him the last time i had problems (then it felt like the biggest dilemma in the world, but nothing compares to this) but i don't want him to think i go to him only when i have issues. i know he wont judge me. i don't want to hurt him anymore, he has always been there for me.

taking a BIG step back for air. i hope i know what i am doing.

:(

2011-10-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

Never felt this lost and sad before...
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Sad

2011-10-06T16:28:00.000+08:00

Goodies

2011-10-06T01:30:00.004+08:00

My mommy is back from Perth!!

she only brought half of the things she bought with her and the rest are in cargo -___- BUT i got most of the things i asked for.

I got my hair oil!

This is the big bottle she got me.

This is the small bottles she got me on her last trip, im almost done with this.
and because she bought the two big bottles, i got another gift set for free! worth USD 29.99

and she got me another Longchamp bag. I told my mom to STOP buying Longchamp because we have too many! between my mom, my sister and i, we most probably have 12-15 (i lost count) and they are 80% are the same style. medium size with short handle.

I mentioned once that i wanted a small Longchamp like Kate Middleton when she was at her graduation. (she has a brown one!) i forgot about it...and was more interested in Anya Hindmarch's Tote bag.

and TADA!! another Longchamp. Surprise Surprise! Not complaining. :P

Fw: Responsibility

2011-10-05T13:56:00.002+08:00

Its when your actions have consequences and the consequences requires A LOT of money.
Things are so complicated right now, I don't know where to start deciding what to figure out first.

Argh

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2011-10-04T18:07:00.001+08:00

aku tak pernah jumpa orang buruk siku macam kau.

i know your parents never thought you that. its just you.

2011-10-04T15:36:00.001+08:00

the thing is you will feel it more than me, because i have never been away. I have always stayed, i know how it feels.

This time, im going away and its your turn to stay and its at the worst time.

What is it? Part 2

2011-10-04T15:12:00.003+08:00

Regarding this post

i know the feeling/emotion i was missing. it is happiness.

Found it!

2011-10-03T18:35:00.003+08:00

i misplaced my (then new, now old) glasses about 3 months ago. i *thought* i threw it out because the last time i remembered seeing it was when i was spring cleaning my room. i was on a roll throwing everything away and i *might* have *accidentally* threw it away....

so i was seeing fuzzies for 3 months. i was scared to tell my mom because 1. it was her frame from 20 years ago. she kept it for that long and 2. i only had it done for about 3 weeks before losing it. i was scared that she might lecture me about she could keep it for 20 YEARS and i lost it after 3 weeks :(. i got a nice lecture from Afiq too saying i dont keep my things properly and dont value them. (i lost my wayfarer in a taxi in Bangkok >.<)

This morning my dad asked me to follow him to do some errands, we took my sister's car. In fact, its Bagak's (my bro-in-law) sister's car. As we were driving out, my dad asked me to turn on the radio - i want to listen to gotcha. i turned on the radio, i noticed a brown frame at the compartment below the radio.

IT WAS MY GLASSES!! seriously... i have driven that car so many times AFTER loosing the glasses and i NEVER noticed it. when i was reaching for the glasses, my heart was racing and hoping praying it was my glasses, it was only 2seconds, but gosh! i was so happy!!!!! the moment i wore it, WOW THE WORLD IS SO BRIGHT AND CLEAR!

my sister, Bagak and his sister have driven that car and they never noticed it too...

so happy!

Chubby Stick Moisturizing Lip Colour Balm

2011-10-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

got this yesterday after reading reviews on it. i love it! its really moisturizing. i wanted to get in Chunky Cherry (sheer red) but Malaysia only has 4 colors minus Chunky Cherry, so i got Super Strawberry (sheer maroon)

i wore it to sleep last night, this morning i woke up my lips were soft and moisturized.

blehh

2011-10-01T01:27:00.003+08:00

i should be working on my proposal now so i can have my weekend off instead i am watching make up tutorials and reviewing what is the next thing a girl should have in her make up bag.

priorities are screwed up!!!

oh yeah

2011-09-30T23:28:00.001+08:00

decided not to get the Atlanta Braves cap BECAUSE i bought make up instead. hehehehe.

Perth

2011-09-30T22:27:00.005+08:00

Mom is in Perth for a short holiday with her friend.

I cant wait for her to come back to see all the things she bought for me!! This time i only asked for hair products and moisturizer!

DermaVeen moisturizer and Macadamia natural oil products. I SWEAR TO MACADAMIA NATURAL OIL PRODUCTS!

During her last trip (she went to Perth 3x this year already!!!!) she brought back the travel size bag. It had the healing oil treatment, Nourishing leave in cream, shampoo & conditioner and the hair mask.

After 3 days of putting the healing oil treatment and nourishing leave in cream, my hair felt so soft and healthy. i have dry and fizzy hair, my hair soaked up all the oil and my unruly hair was tamed. i love it!

my hair still looks fizzy because i have rambut gatal at my ends (what is the term in english? anybody?) so i need a trim ASAP. other than that, this product is awesome. Pls youtube reviews if you dont believe me.

the sucky part is...its not available in Malaysia and its quite pricey (why i could only ask for moisturizer and hair products instead of clothes), but you wont regret it.

so if you are ever in Australia or US. please.get.it.

What is it?

2011-09-29T01:50:00.001+08:00

I'm not sure what is it, but I feel like I'm missing some kind of emotion. A feeling I once felt, I can't remember what it is.

This year's ramadhan has made me more spiritual. I don't pray 5x a day but this ramadhan I did my best to pray 5x. I'm not trying to say, I've changed 100%. It was a start for me. I was going through a bump during ramadhan, praying and doa helped me.

Every night before I sleep and every time I pray, I'll doa for health, happiness, an opportunity, jodoh (and our families can get along) and to be a better person.

Insyaallah

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Dot

2011-09-27T18:24:00.001+08:00

I have a HUGE zit on my cheek, HUGE I mean its inflamed (because I keep touching it) and can't be covered by concealer.

Arghh!

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MT

2011-09-27T17:53:00.000+08:00

If you want? You come lah. If you don't want, its okay.

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jolly

2011-09-26T19:40:00.002+08:00

i love September because it the month where all my favorite tv series come out with new seasons!

Gossip Girl
CSI
CSI NEW YORK
CSI MIAMI
New Girl
How I Met Your Mother
Glee
Grey's Anatomy

8 Tv series!!!!!

Atlanta Braves

2011-09-22T20:42:00.001+08:00

I STILL can't decide and excuse my expression

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2011-09-19T21:40:00.001+08:00

Forgot that I could blog from my phone, hopefully this will encourage me to blog more often!

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hehehe

2011-09-19T21:17:00.004+08:00

Had the most pleasant and easiest fasting month for the first time in years... i was at home most of the time and 60% of the month i broke fast at home with my parents.
Raya was also easy. It wasnt as hectic as last year. We only went to 3 houses the first day. 1 the second day. After that i went Raya-ing with Afiq and the girls.
Atul my homie left for UK to continue her studies. It was so sad....cause she only told us 2 WEEKS before she was leaving!!!! but happy for her cause she has been talking about this since we in school!
Ive been crazy over make ups! it all started when Dahlia introduced to me bb cream and after that i was on this mission to get all the basic essentials you need inside your make up bag and learn how to use make up properly. One day, i dragged Afiq to Sephora and spend almost 2 hours trying and learning how to use concealer, foundation and finding the right lipstick colour. It was heavenly.
i am on a mission to get the Atlanta Braves cap. Well, not exactly a mission, more like a decision, Im not sure if i am willing to spend rm150 on a cap, I rather spend rm150 on make up.
I highly recommend watching Johnny English, seriously, i was literally LOL-ing. It was so funny!!!!!

This is the cap i want....

2011-09-03T00:59:00.001+08:00

tall, dark, handsome and has a nice ass

self medicating

2011-08-08T01:25:00.004+08:00

it started off with a mild sore throat to a full blown cough.

so the other day, i went to Guardian to buy shampoo, i thought i might as well see the pharmacist and get something for my throat. she gave me a tab of lozenges that soothes the throat and get rids of phlegm and i took a bottle of Breacol. (cough syrup)

i went to pick my shampoo and headed to the counter, when my amount came out to rm29.90 i was SHOCKED. haaaaa? my shampoo was rm 12+ and Breacol was rm6, did my tab of 8 lozenges cost me rm12?!?!?!

Yes. It did. a tab of 8 lozenges was rm12! i had to pay. so malu if i decided i didn't want the lozenges then.(mind you, i was coughing badly then, perfectly timing) i was so baffled, i went home and googled the product. which apparently is a good, Difflam. it only lasted me 2 days. im currently sucking on my last lozenge.

This sore throat and cough is still going on for almost a week! i have to stop self-medicating and go to the clinic.

not to mention i have this other infection that is killing me slowly...omg so uncomfortable.

another happiness

2011-08-06T02:20:00.000+08:00

LEARN from Rick Mereki on Vimeo.

MOVE from Rick Mereki on Vimeo.

EAT from Rick Mereki on Vimeo.

2011-08-04T23:17:00.001+08:00

sometimes i dont know why....

KF & JR

2011-08-03T21:50:00.004+08:00

so after reading both sides of the stories in the newspapers. i dont know which is true...but i am on the girl's side. its obvious that there is a 3rd person in the relationship, if not i dont think the girl would make a big deal about it.

apparently the girl found out that he broke off the engagement when she read the papers. thats a big WTF! how can you break off with someone you were planning to be with for the rest of your life...through the newspaper? i really pity the girl. kesian sangat.

this is what happens, when you plan to marry young (they are only 22, my age!) and you get famous. temptations around you (girls, money and hopefully not drugs for KF - he is Malaysia's best goalkeeper!) you get caught up with it and you dont know what to do...you run away from it.

this -situation- is not the first i heard that the boy run away from the problems they encounter.

i saw this on twitter - Always marry a man who is always going to love you more than you love them. Looks and wealth change but men don't.

RUN WITH THE BLIND

2011-08-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

run with the blind marathon

Running Playlist #1

2011-07-30T15:20:00.003+08:00

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Running Segi's Run with the Blind marathon tmrw, last marathon i didnt have time to sync my playlist to my ipod. i put it on shuffle, while running Afiq's Tyler the creator - rapping music came on. surprisingly it was very inspiring and pushed me to run faster.

beyond words

2011-07-29T23:27:00.006+08:00

i was catching up with some girlfriends who were in KL for holidays. we were talking and then she told us a story about her friend.

her friend accidentally got pregnant by her boyfriend. doing the right thing, they got married. the boyfriend is staying in KL (apparently he always goes to Australia for something, i forgot what reason) and the girl is staying in Australia. when the boyfriend went back to kl, he broke up with the girl saying he doesnt want anything to do with the baby. guess what? he did it over facebook. ooohh what a prick.

if i was the girl, i would be so upset. heartbroken. ill be beyond words. :( but she moved on and said she will take care of the baby herself and doesnt want anything to do with the boyfriend.

thats not the sad part...the saddest part, the baby passed away. (Al-fathihah) i honestly cant imagine how the girl is feeling right now. after everything, the one person that was supposed to make everything worth it....gone. i dont know the girl personally but i feel sad for her. i want to take all the sadness away from her. noone deserves this.

but Allah has better plans for the baby and for her.

i call dibs

2011-07-29T23:19:00.001+08:00

on my girlfriends - Atul, Dahlia, Azza, Nash, Nadiah, Sin and Tasha to be my dulang girls when i get married in case any of their girlfriends (from their different group of friends get married the same time as me)

im saying this YEARS in ADVANCE!

stupid cat

2011-07-25T20:47:00.003+08:00

i caught OC chasing after a stray cat, so i chased after him to bring in home. but the stupid cat ran all the way across the street and on to the next street.

the stray cat got away cause it saw me running like a crazy person after OC and when i finally caught OC, he was frustrated. so he did the kangaroo kick and i buffered it with my komeng* (yeah i was smelling my komeng before that so i was already holding it when i went out of the house) he kicked so hard......my komeng koyak :__( now i have to sew it up.

*komeng - is my deformed koala bear that my late grandfather gave me. i had it for years...its really ugly. to those who has a bantal busuk, komeng is my bantal busuk. a better explanation is if you have watched Parents Trap, the preppy Lindsay Lohan has a cuppie.

2011-07-19T20:24:00.001+08:00

i have a plan and i want it to be something by end of this year. thats my deadline.

i will have it.

Dont You Remember.

2011-07-19T01:53:00.004+08:00

currently feeling very sticky and hot. i want to shower so badly but i have this habit of showering late at night and its not good...

i also need to get rid of alot of bad habits that might take over my life, thats another story.

i cant wait to get out from Malaysia. wow im finally saying it. i cant wait to finish my degree (ONE MORE YEAR!) and go. It does not matter if its only for 16 months, alot can happen in 16 months! i usually dont want to say anything because i fear it might never happen, but i gave my parents kickass results for the past 2 semesters and i know i will do well (insyallah and the law of attraction) in the next coming semester. i am definitely going, i only have to decide between my two options and mentally prepare myself. i honestly cant wait start the beginning of my life.

i think this 4 months holiday is starting to take its toll on me. i feel so useless at home not doing anything. i shouldnt complain because i chose not to do anything, like get a job? 4 months holidays is too long, its screwing things up. ARGH!

i am also currently listening to Adele's 21 album while writing this and its sort of making me emotional.

i should go.

thinspiration

2011-07-14T01:11:00.008+08:00

Lately (at least 2 months back) i have become more conscious of my body/health/weight. i know this may sound egoistic of me. I know i am not fat. I may be chubby and over-weight but not fat. i have issues with the word "FAT" but just...insecure with it.

My problem about my weight was...i got comfortable. i got comfortable with the way i looked, the way i ate and how clothes fitted me. i thought size 12 was an okay size. but after a while...what you think is comfort may be something else to people. Afiq (obviously) was the first to tegur me that i was getting fat (this was May 2010) i was in denial saying that i was NOT fat but i may be chubby and of course as a girl, if your boyfriend says you put on weight, you get worried and start thinking of how to lose weight ASAP!!

Instead of diets <- i know myself too well, i LOVE food. i LOVE rice. i LOVE carbs. ahh my weakness. i joined the gym. Gym was fun...for the first 6 months! i exercised everyday for at least 2 hours and lost weight. For the first time in my life i felt really good and thought i looked good. then classes started, i didnt have time, Afiq came back from Perth, and couldn't balance classes, gym and social outings.

this is me at my best weight.

so i got lazy, started to eat more and "tried" to maintain my weight, but obviously failed. i gained back 2kg. To lose 2kgs is ALOT OF HARDWORK.

AND it has brought me to being conscious of my body. it was fine before because i was NOT aware of it, now i am aware of my weight and eating habits. ahh damn! life's a bitch. before this, i was doing it because Afiq said the F word,but now i want to do it for me!

I want those toned arms and slender thighs. i like how i look now, maybe down 3 kgs with toned muscular arms and slender thighs. maybe my thighs are okay but i want muscles (instead of fats) so now, i am not letting myself get comfortable. cutting down on snacking, supper, carbs *cries* and exercising more.

A rant. i follow this girl on twitter who is short and fat. arggh i hate the F word. i dont like being called fat nor call people fat. she complains about being fat and how people call her fat. she questions why cant people just accept?.....if you have issues with that, do something about it! Before you guys think Afiq is a prick for calling me fat, i am quite glad he did, if not...i would prolly be more over-weight now. i needed someone to say it to my face. she criticizes celebrities who were once fat and now skinny. she was so beautiful when she was curvy, she was proud of her weight and now she is skinny she is not beautiful and blablablablablaa but tweets when am i gonna be thin? i miss my old body (which was when she was skinny) she also goes on and on about how she is happy with herself. i am proud to be curvy blablabla (she is comfortable) and then when someone puji cakap she lost weight, she is the happiest girl in the world.

i have to say this, TIPU GILA IF EVERY GIRL DOESNT DREAM OF BEING SKINNY LIKE MEGAN FOX OR JESSICA BIEL.

i mean really? dont be two faced and say you are happy with being curvy but yet yearn to be thin and deny it.

Get off your comfortable ass and go exercise!

There are no fat people, only lazy ones.

Have a thinspiration if you are planning on losing weight, its a good motivation!

*when i say thin, i dont mean skinny model thin, i mean healthy and toned thin. skinny model thin are people who are blessed with good genes.

*Jessica Michibata is my thinspiration. not because she is Jenson Button's girlfriend. because she cycles and run. (like what i am attempting) she takes part in triathlon. damnnzzz that takes alot of stamina, strength, and focus. i want to be able to do that.

Durians

2011-07-13T17:06:00.004+08:00

I changed the layout, i like it. but i hate the colours and im to lazy to play around with the settings because i might screw it up and it'll frustrate me. if i were me 2 years ago, i would be more than happy to mess around with the html codes and settings until i get what i want.

My dad's kebun in Nilai is FINALLY fruiting durians! It was fruiting a few months back, it kept raining and raining so the buds keep falling = no fruits. :( but the weather is on our side now and fruiting many many many durians! Ive been eating durians for 3 days straight and its so good.

Also at the same time, i pee alot = durians are heaty = drink more water. Getting ulcers too, boo.

Ive been cooking too with Afiq. We made couscous twice! first try was Lemon Chicken Couscous, i got the recipe from here, it turned out really good. but Afiq didnt like it dry so a few days after that we tried a different recipe (this time he picked the recipe) it was Tomato Chicken Couscous, it had gravy. I liked this more cause im a gravy person. i cant eat rice or in this case couscous dry.

Looking forward to try new recipes!

Ipad

2011-07-08T23:03:00.002+08:00

i recently downloaded this app called Penultimate. its so cool, you can write your notes using your fingers instead of typing. its so convenient. i cant wait to start uni to start taking notes!

now i need to get a screen protector and a stylus, im good for uni.

diet

2011-07-07T23:11:00.003+08:00

Afiq and i cooked lemon chicken couscous for lunch this afternoon and it was geeewwwdddd. ive always thought cooking couscous was gonna be tedious but it was really simple.

we were so full, we fell asleep.

bb

2011-07-07T22:50:00.003+08:00

Afiq got a blackberry and im the happiest! finally we can talk to eachother without paying. couples should invest in either a blackberry for BBM or Iphones for Whatsapp. you guys can talk as much as you like and its free!

ive been eating alot of sweets, it also doesn't help i have a fridge full of chocolates and candies from Singapore.

#SCKLM11

2011-06-26T22:50:00.004+08:00

my first 10km

honestly i thought i would take about 2 hours to finish because of the human traffic and the pace i was going. by the 6-7th km my feet was starting to cramp up, i could feel the tension when i put pressure on it.

and when we got to Lake Gardens, the hilly roads up, OMG. i just walked up...i wanted to save my feet for the last 2km. really, those hill nearly killed me.

according to my Nike GPS, i finished 10km in 1:31:34 but the route was 10.6km, im guessing i reached the finish line by 1 hour and 40 mins. will know tomorrow when Standard Chartered emails us our timings!

cant wait for the next marathon!

oh boy

2011-06-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

irk

2011-06-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

its the smallest things that bothers me. its all details details details!

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2011-06-16T22:38:00.001+08:00

7040

2011-06-16T02:30:00.003+08:00

/sigh

after all that, its still "I" "ME" "YOU" no "WE" "US"

its demotivating but at the same time it motivates me to work harder.

6927

2011-06-09T23:03:00.007+08:00

today i woke up hating my hair. so i was determined to get my long awaited hair cut today. after lunch with Nadiah and Azza at Ben's GFS we headed to Replacement and i got my hair cut!!!! i love it! its much thinner now and no more fizzy ends.

then Azza and i headed to OU because i had to exchange my movie tickets. since we were in OU, we went window shopping. we ended up spending quite some time in DIVA, trying on necklaces and rings. for some reason, we found ourselves at the hair accessories section, and boyyyy did we try on MANY headbands. my favorites were the turban headbands. they cover up your hair so nicely. All the while i was trying them on, i was thinking, why havent i tried these things before? where have they been? my hair has been unbearable and i hide it in my samurai bun. now after my haircut, i dont need it these things, but i want it. and i dont want to spend rm36 for just a headband!

so good for bad hair days.

which lead me to this.....

the minute i got home, i googled for DIY turban headbands and found the most simplest DIY and searched my cupboard for a top i no longer use.

after 2 hours of sewing!

my own DIY turban headbands, i found a few more designs and will make them soon, because right now i have no tops to recycle.

6920

2011-06-09T00:50:00.001+08:00

I guess I am a Liverpool fan now

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Backfired

2011-06-07T23:36:00.004+08:00

i was looking forward for tmrw ever since i got back from Vietnam because my parents were going on another golf trip to Bandung. i have the house to myself and i can do whatever i like!

BUT plan all backfired because Afiq and family is going to Kota Baru for a wedding, same time my parents are leaving for Bandung. BORING.

so i now have no one to have dinner with. i usually wake up late...and just settle myself in time for dinner.

random : my highscore for Nyan Cat is 60841

BACK

2011-06-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

im back and im bored.

tmrw morning i have a shoot with a local tv channel for a breakfast show on PIMPINS <- badge making business we started or re-started.
1. i NEED to go threading badly.
2. the shoot is in the morning and my hair needs washing. i hate washing my hair in the mornings.
3. i hope everything goes well tmrw. no awkward camera moments or say something i will regret on tv

i am trying to work on two qualities about myself.
1. my stubbornness <- this i know all along, i knew i was somewhat stubborn, i dont like being told what to do and find it so hard to follow instructions especially if its things i don't like doing.
2. my demanding-ness <- my girlfriends and boyfriend keep telling me im demanding, but not the nice kind of demanding.

Stubborn and Demanding, my best and worst quality. i need to balance them out.

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day #3

2011-06-01T23:47:00.005+08:00

there are so MANY of Malaysians who come here until the local vendors can speak Malay.

shopping here is so cheap and so nice. i prefer shopping here better than Bangkok, cheaper. clothes i used to buy at thepoplook are HALF price here! i can get a nice blouse for RM20 provided i bargain like the Malaysian I am. nak murah je.

we went to this Ben Tahn Market. they sell EVERYTHING. but we send straight to material section...OMG i went crazy instead of my mom! i was the crazy one looking at all the cotton materials. banyak sangat sampai juling mata. it was 10USD (around rm30) for 4 meters and labour work to do baju kurung in a day is 13USD so in total 23USD = RM69!!!! SO CHEAP! they can do it in a day! send it to your hotel. GILA. Afiq's mom gave me indian cotton for my birthday to make baju kurung for classes, i brought the material along. they were willing to do it for 10USD. siap pesak and my infamous front kocek (tailors in KL would charge more) rm30 to do....in a day. IN A DAY.

after all the shopping, we went for a full body massage/90 mins for 14USD = RM42. bliss.

tmrw is another full day of shopping and sight seeing. my mom already warned me to control myself. good luck to me.

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crazy

2011-05-31T22:44:00.003+08:00

1. this morning for breakfast, my mom's friend came by our table and asked my mom if i went to the gym because she thought my body was fit and toned. (i was YAY!!!! :D :D :D secretly inside but ken a maintain ayu) while she was praising me to my mom who was being all "yeah, she does but not so often...toned ke? takde la sangat" the aunty then squeezed my arms (to kononnya 'feel' my muscles) and i had to control my face from showing any pain. because my body is still recovering from kickboxing i did 2 days before and through out the day whenever i passed by her, she kept on touching and squeezing my arms. again kena maintain ayu and sakit. puji punya pasal.

2. i had passionfruits for breakfast, one of my favorite fruits. so nice to be able to have as many as i can at breakfast buffet.
3. i bought rubber bands x8 for my hair for 7000 dong which less than RM1.60. so cheap.
4. i am totally useless with the currency. i have to ask my mom to convert to ringgit to get the price.
5. tmrw is shopping day the whole day! i want to buy a helmet.

there are more motorcycles/scooters/vespa on the road than cars! i have never seen so many motors on one street in my entire life! there is a lane just for motorcycles! will post up pictures when i get back

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Saigon/ Ho Chi minh

2011-05-30T22:41:00.002+08:00

hello, im currently in Vietnam!

1. i never knew that Ho Chi Minh is the "new" name for Saigon. its like how Malaya is now Malaysia. got confused when we arrived at the airport, everything was "Saigon" and i thought we were in the wrong place.
2. Facebook is banned here. :((( just realized how much i depend on Facebook for communication. panicked (quietly, didn't want my parents to know im panicking over Facebook) for about 10 mins - because i was thinking, how am i going to keep in touch with Afiq? how to update my status <- yes...that thought crossed my mind
3. 5 mins later, Afiq called me on Skype using his mom's 3G ipad and he was IN the car on the way to Lala Chong for dinner and i am in my hotel room in Vietnam! aahh technology. i love it!
4. Ho Chi Ming in my view (so far! i have only seen it at night) is a cleaner version than Bangkok. i tweeted that, and Atif replied saying how can it be clean if there are men pissing on the street and you can smell it from far. totally ruined my view, we shall see how it is tmrw.
5. i forgot to bring extra rubber bands to tie my hand, so tmrw i hope i can buy some.

No. 5 was random.

something happened to my Blackberry, i don't want to write about it, UNTIL I GET IT FIXED!!! im so sad :(

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i have not showered

2011-05-25T17:27:00.003+08:00

watched Insidous the other night, i thought the trailer was really good and it scared me a little.
i don't know what up with me, i am scared to watch all these ghost horror stories...but at the same time, im curious to know.

my hands will be covering my eyes half the time but yet i still want to watch it! and to me, a good scary movie is the one that i cant sleep at night. like Paranormal Acitivy, i was freaked out, i couldn't sleep for a few nights.

i thought Insidious was gonna be haunting and scary cause its produced or directed by the same people from Paranormal Activity, but it turned out to be just......bleh. a lot of sound effects, sometime through out the movie i looked at Afiq, he had his hands covering his eyes because he didn't like the sudden sound effects.

it did get me curious about out of body experience and astral projection.

ok. thats it. just a random rant i wanted to share.

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who am i kidding

2011-05-22T00:38:00.004+08:00

1. As above, who am i kidding? i am so back dated with my 30 days challenge that...im 4 days away from finishing it, and i only did...3 days worth of 'challenge' I SUCK.

2. My article hmm i am not sure if its even called an article now, since NST online edited the whole lot of it, well...a month ago, i submitted 3 articles to NST online for my Editorial Page final assignment (where we had to submit 3 articles about current issues to any newspapers and get it published to get extra 30% <- thats alot!) the first time i submitted, it didnt get published. i resubmitted it the next day and it still didnt get published.

Ok, you must be wondering, why are you putting your hopes up high? they must be getting thousands of letters/articles from ppl everyday and you expect yours to be read and published within the day? YES, BECAUSE...two of my classmates emailed their articles at 12am and got their stinky articles published the next day!! (im bitter) how unfair. i had to shamelessly resend my articles 3 times before they published it and i find out a month later.

The other night, i had the sudden urged to google my name and my name came out at NST Newspaper and it can only mean one thing... :D my article got published! yay!

3. After 2 weeks of holidays, im already bored to death. got another -/+ 15-16 weeks to go. Thank god, i was asked to work as a temporary staff for a project, it shouldnt be too bad.

4. Within 4 days, i finished Season 4 of Big Bang Theory and Season 6 of How I Met Your Mother and slowly running out of things to watch at night.

5. Been playing futsal almost every week and im loving it. LOVING IT.

6. Finally decided on my birthday present from Afiq. i ees esxIted. :D

30 day challenge

2011-05-14T17:46:00.003+08:00

30 days challenge: Day 12

5 guys i find attractive

1. Afiq (dduuhhhh)

2. Chuck Bass

3. Pharell Williams

4. Jenson Button

5. Ashraf Sinclair

30 day challenge : Day 10

2011-05-12T22:45:00.000+08:00

so yaaa, i am WAY behind my 30 day challenge meme, i am 10 days behind... i suck so bad.

Put your music on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play

Rihanna - unfaithful
The cardigans -
Uffie - hot chick
the xx - island
Justin bieber - baby (ahahahah)
Kings of leon - bucket
atomic kitten - the tide is high (!!!!!)
Cassie - is it you?
Jason Mraz - sleep all day
kid cudi - day n night

Read here